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Saturday, March 15, 2025

Mistress Andrea's Gift

Continued from: Spanked by Lady Jose

[M/f] [spanking] [OTK] [strapping] [sissy] [feminization]

I am pleased to report that not only did Lady Jose permit me to post about her services and the session she had with sissy alice, but she also said she liked it! And, a little icing on the cake, she liked my content enough to share it on her social medias and with Miss Sarah Gregory!! I'm freaking out right now. Star-struck!

Let's see if, in equal measure, Lady Jose likes alice's version of events.


The following, was written and illustrated by sissy alice. It is titled: 

Mistress Andrea's Gift

I woke up with a start, wide awake, nervously grabbing my phone and checking the time, it was only 05:46.  I am always paranoid about oversleeping on days when big things happen and boy was today a big day!  Today I was going to be spanked for real.

I had been looking forward to this day for a while now, the first appointment was delayed due to sickness which only added to the anticipation, but finally it was here. 

Not only was this going to be my very first IRL spanking, but it was really the first time I had been face to face with someone in real life not pretending to be a boy but being my real self, as alice. Add onto that my appointment was with a renowned international disciplinarian as well and you can understand my excitement and nerves!

It started a couple of months before, Mistress had been keen to have me experience a real life spanking and had found Lady Jose after a little research. The first thing I knew about it was an email from Mistress getting me to fill in an application form, which was really exciting! Thankful to Mistress who helped me fill it in, and before long I had emailed Lady Jose with my application, nervously hoping I would be accepted.

Before long Lady Jose came back and accepted, and the date was set. My outfit for the spanking was outlined and approved by Mistress. I was to be dressed like a “little girl” for my spanking. The outfit had been prepared and hanging in my discipline corner for the past few days, ready for the session, a constant reminder of the humiliation I was about to endure.   


Mistress had been teasing me about the approaching day, making sure it was always on my mind. Mind you, I think I would have been thinking about it without the teasing but it added to the mix of emotions swirling inside me, feeding the giant butterflies in my tummy.

Some of the last advice from Mistress the night before was to “remember my manners, stand feet together, eyes downcast. Remember to curtsy if required and address Lady Jose with the respect she deserves." I was to be a demure and dainty young lady. 

It struck me that I was not just there for myself, but I was representing Mistress Andrea. I wanted to do her proud in front of Lady Jose and make this an experience of a lifetime.

I made sure to shower well, shave everywhere I needed to (legs, clitty, armpits, chest, face). I had made sure to save my hygiene cleaning for this morning so that my locked clitty was as clean and presentable as it could have been.

For discretion it was agreed I would arrive at Lady Jose’s studio in “boy mode”, but that was not a problem, I could wear a boy's tracksuit bottom and top over my real clothes. I set about putting on my nails, and making sure to apply a touch of make up (mascara, eyeshadow, just a hint of blush on my cheeks), before putting on my lingerie and dress. The cuffs and choker, along with my wig and Mary Jane heels would go into a bag for transport.


By the time I was dressed and ready it was…oh, I was ready about 4 hours early, lol. Ok, so maybe I need to dampen my excitement a little.  

I managed to see out time to 2 hours remaining, before deciding to leave. It was only a 1 hour drive but I didn't want any chance of being late.  

Typically the journey could not have gone better, and with about 10 mins drive left, and over an hour before I needed to be there, I pulled into a service station for a nature break and a nice canadiacano* 🇨🇦 coffee.  


*Sorry America, it sucks when things named after you are just randomly renamed, right?

I'm not sure what sissy is referencing here. Maybe a stab at numb-nuts in the U.S., trying to rename the Gulf of Mexico? 

In which case, I propose that we start calling the Great Lakes, the Great Canadian Lakes!

After finding parking and walking past Lady Jose’s place once and round the block to waste a few more minutes, I finally pushed on the door to her place and entered, no going back now, alice!

Lady Jose was so welcoming, and incredibly gorgeous! I mean wow, She was dressed in a satin green dress, the shape of which teases glimpses of the hosiery and garter belt underneath. Beautiful pearls around her neck and black heels adorned her feet. She looked amazing, but it was her smile that really caught my attention.   

A smile like that goes such a long way. Her warm greeting helped put me a little at ease as I scanned the room.

Part of the room was made out as a living room, a chaise lounge, small ornate coffee table and other chairs, along with pictures on the wall and a dressing table. I spotted a bench on the left that adorned a number of spanking implements, and on the coffee table lay a couple more.  

Carefully placed to catch the eye, but not totally in your face. It was so well visualized, the whole room.  


Quality implements, Lady Jose. Well done! That's one element that truly makes a difference in a discipline session. 

I was offered a coffee and asked if I would like to chat first or change. I opted to get out of my boy costume so went round to the toilet and stripped off my disguise.  

My heart was thumping now, I could hear Lady Jose and the click click click of her heels getting things ready, and with one final deep breath I stepped out to face someone in real life...as alice.

I was taken aback at how complementary Lady Jose was to me, she absolutely adored my outfit and kept telling me how pretty I looked - me, pretty! If I wasn’t blushing before I was now! We sat down and talked, about me, about Mistress and such, how I got into kink. It was friendly, welcoming and helped me settle in.  

All of the scene had been discussed between Mistress Andrea and Lady Jose in advance, but it was nice to clarify and agree on what was going to happen. We also agreed on a safe word system (red/amber/green) and before I knew it Lady Jose smiled, sat up that little bit straighter and said those wonderful words.

“So alice, are you ready for your spanking?”

I was sent to stand against the wall that would be, for this session, “the corner”, my heart thumping out my chest. I was so nervous, it was all about to happen.  


I don’t think I was there long before Lady Jose called me out and directed me to stand beside her.  Pointing at her lap she said, “you are going over my lap for a while now, alice, you will be there a while and your bum is going to hurt after.”

I laid over her lap, felt her place one arm over my back to hold my hip and it started. Softly at first, with my dress covering my bum still.  A gentle hand spanking warm up. It felt so good, the arm around my hip, the rhythmic slap slap slap of the firm hand on my bottom. I was told how pretty my dress was, as I was laying across her lap being spanked.  

Lady Jose paused briefly to pull up my dress and compliment my satin panties before resuming my spanking.

With one less layer protecting my skin the spanks began to get stronger, and my bottom was starting to warm up.  

In the next pause my panties were pulled down and we were into full bare bottom spanking. It felt incredible, her hand was so firm, the spanks so consistent as they slowly built up in intensity as my spanking progressed.  


Eventually there was a pause and I was sent back to the corner, to show off my pretty pink bum. As I stood with my nose to the wall, I could hear the click click click of heels behind me. I guess Lady Jose was taking pictures but also getting the next stage of my spanking ready.


Sure enough I was called back over Lady Jose’s lap, for more hand spanking. To be a 40 year old man dressed as a little girl, bent over the lap of a gorgeous woman whilst being spanked is a humiliating experience! The spanks were getting harder now, and eventually I was letting out small moans with the strikes.

"There, so you CAN make sound after all, Alice,” I remember Lady Jose joking. Guess up until then I had been rather quiet, trying to take in the whole experience spank by spank.  

Lady Jose had already told me the order of what was to come next in the pre chat - hand, leather, wood.  That was the order. Softer at first and building up intensity. I was living exactly what Mistress Andrea had written in the lesson about maintenance spankings! It was like these two had been to the same spanking school, or borrowed each other's textbox on administering a proper spanking. 

Lady Jose finished the hand spanking and soothed my now pink behind with her hand. The feel of her warmed hand over my bum was so arousing, I was nervous I would leak on her dress! My clit-cage was coming into direct contact with her lap, the little pink nub of a chastity cage that I had been locked into for 203 days at this point. 

Then, a new sensation, something cooler was slid over my bum, and Lady Jose informed me this was one of two leather paddles I would be receiving.  

The swats were harder, making me groan with each one. I could feel my sit spots start to complain when the strokes hit in that perfect spot as the two different types of leather paddles were used to add yet more depth in the colour of my bottom. 

 
I think it was now that Lady Jose used her nails to gently glide across my spanked bum - oh boy what a feeling. So sensual, so soothing! Before I knew it I was nose to the wall again as click click click went those heels, getting the next stage ready. Leaving no uncertainty that I was being disciplined by a woman!

I was called back and this time was told to bend over the arm of the chaise longue. It was time for my belt strapping.

Now the feel of a belt swatting across your behind, when wielded by someone with the expertise of Lady Jose is a wonderful experience. The sound, the feeling, the intensity!  

I know I am a bit of a masochist so I really liked the belt, grunting as each blow hit. It was intense, but at the end Lady Jose asked how that was, on the traffic light system. In my state of mind I said green, the last spanks hurt but overall it was fine. 

Probably not the best strategy, alice, telling a professional disciplinarian that "it's fine" after she's tanned your butt with a belt. Tsk tsk.


“Go to your corner, I have just the thing for a little pain sissy like you,” Lady Jose hissed.   

Nose to the wall I listened as her heels clicked off into the distance. Then the clicks returned, and Lady Jose came next to me, told me to look at her and held up something called a Canadian prison strap. Oh my, that thing looked intimidating.  

* Another Canada reference 🇨🇦 today, it’s like it was written in the stars ✨… 

Now the leather belts hurt, but the prison strap was so much more intense. Each stroke made me cry out as Lady Jose expertly wielded it's fury. 

“This is what happens when you say green to a true Disciplinarian, sissy!  What colour is it now?”  Lady Jose asked after finishing.  

Haha! Told you so!

My first thought was ouch, that thing hurt a lot. Yet part of my brain, thankfully a very small part, was begging for more.  

“Amber now Ma’am, definitely amber!” I cried out.

* Later, Lady Jose would tell me that the strap was a lazy spanker’s dream implement. Minimal effort to use, maximum effect on the butt!  

After a short corner time pause, it was time for woods. Lady Jose had selected a beautiful dark wooden hairbrush with an inlay, “A beautiful implement for a beautiful sissy spanking!”

Antique ebony hairbrush maybe? Those are frightening. And I think I saw one, at the ready. 


Yep. Right next to those super-cute hour glasses that I would totally use for lengthy corner time. 

With the focused areas of the small brush, my sit spots were really hurting now, I was crying out like a little girl with every blow. There were a range of paddles, I lost track here now a little. There was another small brush, a large brush, a olive wood spatula (apparently it’s a very strong wood - good to know given my old spatula broke a couple of weeks ago!) and a bath brush.  

I hate bath brushes, damn the hurt - Lady Jose said it’s down to the length.  

After more corner time, it was time for the most humiliating thing I have ever had to do. The wheelbarrow pose. Now I didn’t actually know what it was at first, but when Lady Jose described it, I was mortified! Positioned like that she would see everything, my most intimate spots! 

No hiding from anything, as EVERYthing is on full display. It truly is a very vulnerable and humiliating position to be spanked in.


Positioning myself, head down and straddling her lap, Lady Jose started playing my red bum like a drum, with the spatula and bath brush, and I was so humiliated I hate to say I started giggling. I couldn’t help it! Those sorts of situations sometimes make me laugh uncontrollably, it’s the nerves. Lady Jose didn’t like that, slapping harder I was told, “this is not supposed to be funny alice, this is supposed to be humiliating!”  

Ummm...ya. Once again, probably not a good idea, alice. You and I are going to have a little chat about this part, young lady!

Oh Lady Jose, it was sooo humiliating - hence the nervous, uncontrollable giggling. I was so sorry for that, believe me.   

You're going to be! 

It was approaching the end of the session, but there was time for one last position. I was instructed to lay down onto the chaise longue once more, on a towel and pull my legs up high, diaper position, the second most humiliating position I could be spanked in. 


Holding the bath brush it felt like Lady Jose towered over me as she inspected my behind.  “This is the only position you can look someone in the eye as you spank them.  Look at me alice,” Lady Jose commanded. I felt so small and childish, with my outfit to reinforce this fact. I felt like her naughty little girl. 

If being spanked isn’t humiliating enough, if spreading your legs so wide you expose every part of you isn’t mortifying, try looking someone in the eye as they spank you. I just couldn't do it for long, it was so humiliating. My tooshie killed now with every stroke, every blow of the brush. With a final 6 swats Lady Jose seemed content with her work.

For one final time I was back in the corner. This time Lady Jose informed me she was messaging Mistress on how I did and sending her images. I was so nervous, what would Lady Jose say, what would Mistress think??


What Lady Jose told me at the time was that Mistress really liked Her sand timers…..  😂🤭  I hope there was more in there, maybe something about my tooshie but still, they are lovely sand timers admittedly.

I told her to give you 20 minutes in timeout, which was covered in the last post. She's a professional disciplinarian of international esteem, she doesn't / didn't need my help. Just look at your naughty bum, she's a pro. 

Even on the eve of your session when she asked me what implements I'd like used on you, I made a few comments but again, she didn't need my two cents. My gift to you was just getting you there in the first place ; ) 

It was humbling to think these two divine, majestic, dominant women were conversing over me, little old me, as I stood in the corner with my panties hiked down and my bum bare. I have no idea how long I stood there, Lady Jose occasionally said something from the conversation with Mistress. I was so content at that point, nose to the wall, my bottom glowing hotter than it ever has before knowing I was being spoken about like a naughty child in the corner. Corner time is so powerful, so therapeutic at times like that.

This was my gift from Mistress Andrea, the most wonderful, amazing gift delivered by the amazing, beautiful Lady Jose. I was so honoured by it all, sad it was over but so grateful none the less.  

After some time I was called out of the corner and the situation felt immediately more relaxed.  Lady Jose offered me a coke, or fanta, and it suddenly dawned on me that I could really do with something sugary. I cannot remember if I changed first, or if we sat and reviewed the pictures taken first. It was so nice to have a relaxed conversation after such a thrilling session, it helped finalise things in my brain, just as corner time is such a powerful time post-session, to allow the mind to process all the buffered thoughts from the experience. We spoke about what worked, what could be done differently next time, about other fetishes and such. 

With a final hug (Lady Jose gives the best hugs by the way!) and some more kind words, I was on my way, a spring in my step unlike anything before, the cool air invigoratingly fresh on my skin.  I messaged Mistress immediately to tell her how well it went, and headed to my car. I couldn’t wait to get home and debrief Mistress on what had happened that day.

Mind you, the drive was less than comfortable, next time I think I'll need a pillow to sit on!

In very short order, the same day as my session actually, Mistress Andrea made a post about it and it was the first time she called this entire experience a gift, to me! I became emotional almost instantly, with tears blurring my vision as I continued to read and absorb the magnitude of exactly what she had done for me. 


I will never, ever forget how wonderful of a gift this this was. Thank you, Mistress Andrea. 

kisses everyone
alice

P.S. I've already booked another therapy appointment with Lady Jose. Apparently she and Mistress Andrea are already cooking up some details about the session. It sounds like I'm being "sent" to stay with my strict but caring "Auntie", and Auntie doesn't care for boys. She always wanted a little girl of her own... 

If permitted, I'll post again, after I've been back across Auntie's knee. Would that be ok? 

Very nicely done, alice. You've earned the ability to post on my blog with that wonderful content, your self-awareness and your willingness to continue this journey you're on. 

We'll see if your fans on here would like to see more of you. 

Mistress Andrea

xoxo


Continued in: First Time

Tuesday, March 4, 2025

Today's Lesson: Punishment Spanking

Continued from: Maintenance Spanking

[Domestic Discipline] [spanking] [Ff/m] [corner time] [humiliation] [OTK] [severe]

Riddle me this...

How do you truly punish a submissive via spanking, who's kink is to be spanked? 

Does someone need to be sobbing, in order for it to be a punishment? (Those look like crocodile tears)


Does the aftermath of someone's bum need to look like this, before it's truly a punishment? Using my previous scale of severity, do I just start at a ten, with no warm up at all?  


None of the above, actually. It's all in the demeanour of the person administering the spanking. 

For maintenance, the nice weekly or monthly reset I covered in the last post, you could even call it a therapeutic spanking - it's not only just the physical and emotional sensations of the experience, but also about the words I'm using. 

"You're doing so well Russell, Mommy is proud of you for asking to be spanked. It's okay to need to be over my lap from time to time, there's no shame in it, young man." 

And then I'm going to take Russell's maintenance spanking all the way to his limits, push those limits a little bit, until he is wishing it was over and feeling it for days. 

If I was going to punish Russell for something, I'm going to take Russell's punishment spanking all the way to his limits, push those limits a little bit, until he is wishing it was over and feeling it for days. I purposely repeated myself and in either scenario, he's going to be met with the same view: 


So what changes about my approach? What makes it a punishment? 

My words do: 

"I can't believe you forgot to..."

"How many times have I reminded you to..."

"I was twenty minutes late for that meeting because of your..."

"If you're gonna act like a naughty little boy, I intend to treat you like one." 

Or the worst possible scold of all time, amidst a spanking from a maternal or paternal disciplinarian: 

"You've really disappointed me..."

Other than the way I am speaking, the spanking will be administered in the same manner as the last post, building layer upon layer of colour and sting, so Russell is reminded of and feels the effects of his misbehaviour for days afterwards, which is no different than how I want his bum to feel after a maintenance spanking. 

Might I add some minutes to his corner time, given that it is a punishment and not maintenance? Yes, I probably would ensure he's in timeout for thirty minutes on either side of his spanking. Might I mix in the use of a cane where I would otherwise have used my slipper, a bath brush instead of a wooden spoon? Quite likely indeed. 

There are some aspects of punishment that are actually different than maintenance, not just my words, and it goes back to the riddle at the beginning. How do you punish someone via spanking, if they're into being spanked? You're going to have to do something that is actually unpleasant that they would want to avoid in the future, at all costs. 

One hour in the timeout corner, a mouth soaping, writing lines, a ginger fig, grounded to a room, a witnessed spanking...all while keeping things still in the admin, domestic discipline side of the house. And...does the punishment fit the crime? Did Sarah Jane just mouth-off to me over something silly? Is that why she has a red bum and a bar of Ivory in her mouth? 

If Sarah Jane is required to be in high heels in her maid attire and I catch her in flats, would I give her a mouth soaping? Probably not. I would likely punish the soles of her feet. 


Russell actually got a doozy the other day, a real one! And just like the structure of maintenance, he was told he was getting a spanking, why he was getting a spanking and when it would be happening. When he also learned that Summer would be present to witness the spanking, that's when the begging and pleading started, kissing at my feet and hoping for an alternative option. 


Winter in Canada is not survivable without chapstick. It's what we have to do, all winter long, to stay alive. Russell usually has one in his pocket at all times. When he forgets to remove this from his pocket, before his pants end up in the laundry, then the chapstick gets washed too. I've warned him about this many times! 

Washing a chapstick, no big deal. The dryer on the other hand, with my clothing also in it, with Summer's clothing also in it... 


This is Summer's new Aritzia trackie, which now looks like it came into contact with a pepperoni pizza slice. A pair of leggings of mine, now peppered with these grease stains also. This was the scene of the crime. Naturally I brought Russell to the scene to have a little "chat" about not only this occurrence, but the other times I have repeatedly told him to check his pockets before he does the laundry. 


I had him go fetch a chair from the adjacent office, bring it into the laundry room and position it for OTK. The wooden clothing brush hanging from the wall behind me was my implement of opportunity and I was pissed! But...never spank when you're angry... 

I took a breath and hung the brush back on the hook, abandoning that idea. I brought Russell over my knee and smacked him on his jeans while I continued to scold. 


After a few dozen smacks I helped him to his feet and sent him to his room like a child. 

"You are to remain in your room," I coldly explained, my tone now calm and confident. "I will be up to punish you in a little while."

And now, go back and read the last post because I am right back here again. Implement plan, spanking plan, order, location and positioning, right?

About one hour after I sent him to his room to stew in his own shame and embarrassment, I clicked towards the closed door and opened it, finding him seated on the bed with his head down. 

"Strip, and go stand in the corner, hands on your head." My words were direct, strict...enough to frenzy anyone's butterflies with my no nonsense approach. Once I had him down to just his cock cage, his nose buried in the corner, I took my time clicking in and out of the room in my commanding heels, setting things up, dragging in a chair, arranging my implements. 


As a co-victim of the chapstick incident, I called Summer upstairs to witness Russell's spanking, the humiliation alone, sealing the deal that this would be a true punishment for him. And again, I'm right back to the structure of my last post, set one, position one, set two, different room, different position, and so on. 


I gave him thirty minutes of corner time when his spanking was over, down in the living room near the large picture windows, while Summer and I just watched TV like it was a normal Tuesday night in a female-led, domestic discipline, BDSM relationship. He's lucky Sarah Jane wasn't here, I would have had her watch too, she was out for dinner with some friends. 

I don't mean to turn into Buzz Killington here, people, but the reality is, punishment spankings don't actually occur that often. Everyone in my household, my wife included, knows the rules and with very, very few exceptions, everyone abides by them. Masturbation is a big one for me, but the girls know better and behave, and I keep Russell's penis locked in a chastity cage, he can't misbehave in that manner if he wanted to.  

Over at Miss Julie's blog, she tried it once, for real. She and her hubby created and signed a domestic discipline contract, spelling out the terms of how and when SHE would be physically corrected, punished or "consequenced", as she put. 


I love the idea, it's an additional layer of control and vulnerability, a looming specter in the relationship that helps to govern the submissive's behaviour. It would have been so exciting for them to create and sign together. 

Another important aspect of punishment spanking is that it needs to be immediate, or very closely linked in time, to the time of the offence, otherwise it just loses its luster. So to engage in a successful domestic discipline relationship with real rules and real consequences, you need unwavering access to the spankee you are responsible for, which Julie and her hubs had.   

Have a look at her posts from that period of time and her DD contract: 


Spoiler alert: it didn't work for Julie and David. 

Do you know what Julie realized? One, she has a spanking kink and with the new contact in place, she wasn't being spanked at all. Because...two...she realized she doesn't mess up and is generally well behaved. *shrug* 

They abandoned the DD contract and just went back to doing "scenes" together.

Well, fuck...now what? How does a spanko get that spanking fix they so desperately crave, if they are a well behaved submissive? Role play scenes? - Maybe...

Maintenance! Again...back to the previous post. 

Personally, I think a healthy blend of rules and structure with very clear consequences is nice to have as a baseline of a DD dynamic, combined with the understanding that Summer, Sarah Jane and Russell, all need maintenance discipline in their lives. Call it therapy, call it someone pressing your reset button or emptying your cup when it's full, even call it foreplay...it's needed, even for me sometimes to be on the receiving end.  

Adult spankings come in many forms, do what works for your own dynamic, do it safely and do it sanely. 

I'll leave you with a little blast from the past, the true OGs of punishment spankings from back in the day. "Teen" Jessica and "teen" Brandi from the Real Spankings Network. Oh boy, those two girls got their asses beat! It was serious punishment, but fabricated by roleplay for the purposes of their productions. It was truly some of the best content of that period of time. 

Sitting on a bed, head down in shame, waiting to be punishment-spanked as an adult...sound familiar? 


Link to this video: Spanking Teen Brandi


I don't think they follow my severity system of starting at one and building to eight. I think she basically starts at a ten!

You were a trooper Brandi! 

Some quick reference cards provided below. 


 

Should I even cover role play spankings? Or is that pretty self-explanatory? Let me know in the comments. 

Like, I've been sent home with a note from school, to give to my Daddy? That sorta role play?


Mistress Andrea

xoxo 





 



 

  

 







 

Tuesday, December 10, 2024

Lump in the Throat

Continued from: Never a dull Moment

[Romance] [DDLG] [M/f] [Daddy] [F/f] [littles] [drama] [tears]

Cassandra Goth 

12.10.2024 - Sunnybrook Hospital, Toronto, Ontario


As I crept silently into the sterile hospital room, my heart heavy with concern, I was struck by the sight of my dearest friends, their faces etched with exhaustion and grief as they slept uncomfortably on whatever surface they could find. 


And there, in the center of it all, lay Russell - the only positive male role model I had ever known, the only man I had ever come to like. It pained me to see him hooked up to all that machinery, I felt a lump in my throat, threatening to choke off my breath. 

I reached out a trembling hand , gently stroking Russell's forehead, feeling the clamminess of his skin beneath my fingertips. 


The doctors had told the girls that he was in a medically induced coma, his body kept in a state of suspended animation while it worked to heal itself from the inside out. 

As I sat on his bed, holding his limp hand in mine, I couldn't shake the feeling that he was still with us, still fighting to hold on despite the darkness that threatened to consume him. 

"Russ, it's Cassie," I whispered, leaning in close as to not wake the others. "I know you can hear me. I know you're still in there somewhere, listening to everything I say."


My voice cracked, and hot tears began to roll down my cheeks as the weight of my emotions finally overwhelmed me. "I...I wanted to thank you, Russ, one last time...for everything you've done for me," I managed to choke out between sobs, my grip on his hand tightening. 

"It was you, all along, who gave me the courage to go to London and find Carley. You saw something in me that I didn't even see myself, and pushed me to embrace it, to become the woman I was always meant to be." 


I took a shuddering breath, trying to steady myself as the memories came flooding back - the night he consoled me like a father would, as I navigated the heartbreak of saying goodbye to Carley. 


"Hell, my own parents won't even speak to me anymore, Russell" I continued, my voice bitter with resentment. "I guess I'm too much of an embarrassment to their precious, aristocratic, country club circles, just because I have tattoos, because I married a woman.”


"But you...you never judged me. You accepted me for who I am, and you loved me anyway. You've been more of a father figure to me than my own flesh and blood ever was." 

At that, I broke down completely, my shoulders shaking with the force of my sobs as I buried my face into his hospital gown, letting the tears flow freely. 

I was praying with every fiber of my being that he could hear me. 

"Daddy! I don't want you to go...I need you!" 


Cassandra L. Goth 


Continued in: Our Anchor


Tuesday, November 19, 2024

Doctor Patel

Continued from: Roommates

[F/f] [spanking] [OTK] [hairbrush] [cornertime] [tears] [humiliation]

Written by Skylar St. Germaine

"Please, Skylar, punish me." 

Her words sent a shiver down my spine, igniting a fire within me that I had never felt before. My hand, poised above her bare bum, clenched into a fist before relaxing again. 


With a swift, decisive motion, I brought my palm down hard against Eesha's upturned ass. The sound of flesh meeting flesh echoed through the room, mingling with Eesha's sharp cry of pain. A red handprint bloomed instantly on her bronze complexion, and I watched, transfixed, as she squirmed against me. 

Again and again, I spanked her, each smack harder than the last, my hand stinging with the force of the impacts. 


With each punishing blow, Eesha's cries morphed into desperate apologies and promises. "I'm sorry," she sobbed, her voice breaking. "I'll do better, I promise. Please, Skylar, I'll be a good girl!" 

Her words fueled my fervor, spurring me to spank harder, faster, until her ass was a canvass of crimson and purple. 


"I won't disappoint you again," she vowed, her tears flowing freely now. "I'll study harder, I swear!" 

When I felt Eesha go limp across my lap, I slowed my assault, my hand gentling to soothing strokes across her bare bum. "Shhh," I whispered. "You've been punished enough for now." 

Eesha collapsed against my legs, her body heaving with exhausted sobs. Slowly, she slipped her arms around my waist in a tight embrace. "Thank you for punishing me, Skylar." I ran my fingers through her disheveled hair and told her everything would be okay. 

Eesha clung to me for a moment longer, before reluctantly releasing her hold. With a soft sniffle, she rose unsteadily to her feet, wincing as she gingerly rubbed her sore bottom. I watched as she shuffled towards her bed, her steps hindered by the panties still pooled around her ankles. She crawled atop the covers, curling into a small ball around a pillow and quietly sobbed herself to sleep. 


For Eesha, this was no game, no sexual fantasy. It was a deep-seated need, a compulsion born of years of strict upbringing and the weight of expectations. And I, her friend and confidante, understood the gravity of my new role. 

In the months that followed, an unspoken ritual emerged between us. Every few weeks, I would return to our dorm room to find Eesha standing in the corner, her shoulders shaking with silent sobs, her bottoms and panties pulled down. 


Wordlessly, I knew this was my queue to help her with whatever she was struggling with. I would guide her by the bicep to her bed, to my bed, or to a nearby chair, and position her directly over my lap. 


As our ritual evolved, so too did my autonomy to punish her more creatively and effectively. On some occasions I would reach for my belt, other times it was Eesha's own hairbrush, the unforgiving wooden surface leaving ashy-white splotches on her bare bum. 

I began to incorporate enforced corner time into our sessions, before and after her spankings. I even insisted that she start stripping fully nude for me, before being sent to the corner or going over my knee. 


"Socks too, Eesha. I want you fully nude," I would command and she covered her face with her hands and cried into her palms. 


These moments of vulnerability, of enforced introspection, seemed to bring Eesha a sense of peace. They allowed her to confront the demons that drove her need for strict punishment, to accept the consequences of her actions. 


Years have passed since I last saw Eesha. Our paths diverged after graduation, she pursuing her dreams in medicine, while I took an internship with NASA. But now...now I'm here, at Mistress Andrea's Facility, providing the exact same service to men and women, that Eesha once needed. 

I often find myself wondering what Eesha would think if she saw me now. Would she recognize the echoes of our shared past, in the way I wield a paddle now? Or would she see me as some sort of deviant, a perversion of the friend she once knew? 

I like to believe that Eesha would approve. After all, it was our time together that first awakened this side of me, that showed me the transformative power of adult spankings and discipline. 


I stared at my phone, my thumb hovering over the screen. It had been years since Eesha and I had spoken, yet the memories of her vulnerability lingered within me. I wondered if she still felt the same need for structure, for discipline, that had once landed her over my knee with her bum bare. Or did she still crave the cathartic release that only a thorough spanking could provide? 

I was between discipline sessions at the Facility, and before I could second-guess myself, I typed out a simple message to Eesha: a single heart emoji, followed by the words 'miss me?' 


I hit send, my pulse quickening as I waited for a response from Eesha, who was listed in my phone as Doctor Patel. Finally. three dots appeared, signaling that Eesha was typing. My breath caught in my throat as I watched the screen, anticipation coiling in my gut. 

And then her reply: 

"More than you know."

My heart leapt at the sight of those four words, a surge of warmth flooding through me. Whatever doubts I may have had about reaching out, vanished in an instant. Eesha still needed me, still craved the unique brand of discipline that only I could provide for her. 

And I was more than ready to deliver!


Goddess Sky

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Friday, February 16, 2024

What Katie Did

Continued from: Roses are Red, Summer is too

[F/f] [OTK] [severe spanking] [cornertime] [humiliation] [hairbrush] [tears]

I am in no way, shape or form affiliated to the vintage lingerie brand titled, "What Katie Did". It just so happens to be the name of this post, based on a client of mine named Kate. 

The lingerie however, is one of my favourtite brands. It's 1930's 40's and 50's pinup style, dresses too. The stockings, the seamed ones, the fully fashioned ones, are simply divine. Anytime a client of mine needs to be spanked by "Mommy", the collection from What Katie Did are my go-to styles.


Kate, on the other hand, is a new-ish client of mine. I find her to be quite a fascinating individual, based on the type of service she wants from me. I thought she was worthy of a post, my darling Katie, as I refer to her when she's with me. 

Picture like a Diane Lane...Aged beautifully, elegant, sharp and seriously feminine! Her experience shines brightly, in the odd strand of platinum-silver, that now runs through her hair. She doesn't dye it. She wants her level of maturity on display. This is essentially how I would describe Kate. 


I'm not 100% sure what she does for a living but my instincts tell me that she is some manner of corporate powerhouse. A CEO, a CAO, maybe the Director of a finance or legal department. She absolutely oozes corporate power, but comes to me to be spanked. 

I get it...I understand why she wants and needs this type of escape, given her vanilla role. I'm not sure if it was topping from the bottom originally but she basically told me exactly how she wanted her appointments to go. I obliged her, she tips well!

She only ever books with me over her lunch-hour on a weekday. Like visiting a therapist or dentist, like booking a massage. It's in her calendar, it's once a month and she is always on time. 

Kate graciously brings me an overpriced coffee, which she sets on my desk like an apple for the teacher. She mutes her phone and sets it on my desk also, along with her purse.


She of course greets me with a smile and a "Hello, Ma'am", but beyond that she doesn't say anything else. Kate just walks to the corner and parks herself in timeout. Sometimes I lower her dress-pants to her ankles, sometimes I just let her be. 


30 full minutes. This is what Kate asked of me, to strictly enforce 30 full minutes in timeout. I hear her breathing change around the ten minute mark. Deep inhales and deep exhales, as she stands motionless in her stilettos. 

Her panties always stay on for her spanking. If she's not in a tiny little thong which she usually wears, I will wedgie her panties up her bum crack so my target area is predominately bare. Her pussy and bottom hole have always been covered, upon her request. 

She wears a wedding band...maybe that's why? Maybe her hubby allows these sessions for her provided her modestly is maintained? I think she wears the pants at home though. Her hubby is probably a sissy maid to her. She reeks of female dominance...just not in these particular moments, and that's exactly why she needs these particular moments.  


The level of spanking on a severity scale of 1-10, Kate wants an 11. Bathbrush, the strap, hardwood paddles, canes, hairbrushes. She wants me to take her to "yellow" every time, but will never say "red". She believes it shouldn't be her decision when her spanking ends. 

Remember faint-of-heart people, this is what she has asked for:


Once per month, on her lunch break, without fail, she leaves my office with a bum that looks like the above and sometimes a tear-stained face. 

She is quite the trooper. Sometimes she doesn't even cry, she just silently takes it. 


When I declare "that's enough till next month", she drops to the floor and kisses my footwear while thanking me. Sometimes she's bawling...sometimes she's fully composed. Kate wanted this as part of her ritual for some reason, to lower herself to the floor and kiss my high heels. 


Then, just like her arrival, she walks herself to the corner and parks her nose against the walls. I start the timer again...for another 30 minutes if you can believe it! Her request. 

30 minutes in the corner, 30 minutes of spanking typically and 30 minutes in the corner, once a month! This is how she spends her lunch break. A truly intriguing woman! 


When the timer finishes she dresses. She holds me tightly and says, "thank you", and off she goes. It's somewhat mysterious. Like I want to know what happens after she leaves me or see her back at work, squirming in her seat. Her spankings are so severe that she'd be feeling the effects for a week, and seeing the marking and bruising for two weeks. 

Does her hubby see her bum and become horrified? Aroused? Does Kate get sexually aroused from this? Probably...but likely not in the moment. So mysterious! 

After our embrace she un-mutes her phone, grabs her purse and coffee...and boom, back to corporate power-fem. 


I end with a "see you next month, Katie". But not spoken as a statement. I frame it as a question, always open to her consent to continue or not. 

"See you next month, Katie?"

"Yes Ma'am, I'll be here, thank you Ma'am". 

And I kiss her forehead...


I'm not sure what Katie did, to feel she deserves such treatment each month. 

Maybe it's just the greatest possible escape a corporate adult could ever hope for. 

I admire her nevertheless!

Mistress Andrea

xoxo

Continued in: Machine Learning






 

Farewell Julie

Continued from:  Oops, I did it Again [spanking] [M/f] [kink] [bdsm]  In peace, may you leave your blog In love, may you find the next. Safe...